Thursday, April 11

I sometimes think that claiming I’m ‘cursed’ might very well be worse for me than it is good. I never want to sound dramatic, or take away from others who are experiencing much worse than I do. Maybe it’s just me over thinking, but I think thats why I’ve been gone for so long. It’s not that I don’t want to blog. I do. I have so many unwritten pieces that were intended to go up on this website, but I just felt weird doing so.

Another thing- while I don’t write these for really anyone else, it just sucks knowing no one is really enjoying my writing. It’s just kind of me, out here, all alone. Which, when writing this blog, just kind of makes me feel sad. I can say this here because of this exact reason, I know no one is reading this.

But honestly, it feels good to write again, and if anything, I enjoy this and it does not necessarily matter if anyone else does, I think it just gets to me sometimes in terms of my self worth and the standards I hold myself to.

Moving on though: my classes have been really fun. I especially enjoy my slow photo class. I like all the people in the class, as well as my teacher. I finally feel excited to make art once again, and I feel like I know what direction I want to take my work in. HOWEVER…I may or may not have a slight crush on someone in this class. But knowing me and my curse…nothing will ever happen. I just sometimes feel a little too unlucky, but I’ve come to an understanding about that. Maybe I really am cursed, or maybe it’s just life running its course, but either way: it sucks.

One really awesome thing, though, is I got this amazing $10 unicorn camera and have made some cool, and slightly terrible, images with it! Here are just a few:

Claire posing while knitting at 4x speed.

Daisy, who wants to keep playing with my camera.

Balloons that never actually hug or kiss me.

Anyways, there will definitely be more of these uploaded here later! But until next blog post - I hope you all enjoy every day and smile :-)

-Campbell xx